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Hmms.
Last night i went to lanshop.
Then went kor house , drink abit wif kang .. very slpy .
So i went slp very at abt 1am.

woke at 7+
cause today is our springflash compy.
played 2 games. We owned both games. so now , our next opponent is some "noobus" in Top 8
We have to go back and play at next sat.

Reached home at abt 4pm . ate some maggiemee
played some games which is boring
And now, im still feeling bored LOL

Drink and drunk

Last night , went out at 11+
i went to lan, tons people there. i played a game with the noobs. no mood at all , joke mouse and keyboard.
After game. Went eat , smoke and go matthew house.

Esther and Aaron helped me edit my blog .
Thanks to them. I treat them ciggs when they are done.

She sms-ed me , i dun really believe what she said.
But i meant to go down and meet her.
She doesnt wan. Her tones , irritated me .
I hate her to be like that.
but still . i deeply miss her.

I know, how many bad deeds she had done , i still cant take her off my mind, let alone heart..
I dun wish for anything now, as long as she is fine and living well.
I do not want u back , but i wish to have u back.. i dunno which to follow.. Heart or mind?
But still , its the same . theres no progress , soon she will forget me ..

I slp at 4.30am , woke at 6.40am . Rushed home. bath change and go work . Told my dad that i want an early release . He act as if never hear . So , nvm , continue my work .Was damn sleepy when working , almost fall aslp . Luckily im still healthy. Still manage to work until end , and im not slpy anymore . I think im like a zombie soon. Everyday sleep less than 3 hours.

I realise , both of my hands. the scratches and scars. imba many already . 1 week plus one.

Later , im having abit of team training ( i guess ) Tomorrow is Springflash , Quite easy brakets imo . Have to wake early again . 8.30 have to report. Then i will go jason KOR house , Drink and slack with those old birds . All of them tml off day . So its a good chance. He own the house . We can speak loud. Hehe.

ok .. i got nothing more to write alrdy . Thats all for today.
Thanks guys for concern

im back from home about 2 hours ago , last night, i couldnt slp again . Until 4.30 , she pick up the phone , i began to feel slpy.

tml have to work again , bored, but , i despo for money , so nvm.
Sunday off day , im going to play my dotasg compy ,
anyway, sat night , im going drink, finding some buddies accompany me.
WHO wan go drink PM ME NOW

Virgin post

im doing all these , changing all my passwords. Even my old blog , is your account. Everything, just trying myself from stop missing her , i feel that unworthy. i knew it long ago , if i were to tell her my everything . in fact i had nothing to keep from her , she would take it for granted. But she got tons things which i dunno , like something , i knew it after our broke up .Lied to me for 3 weeks. I feel no point , im trying to give confidence for u , but its really hard , everytime i would be missing you , wondering what are u doing , everytime i would sms you , u are either replying later or rather, never reply. You will only sms me when i think its dead bored. Nobody is entertaining you? You said u love me , u said u miss you , i feel no more . Really no more ,

I wish, the time could turn back , back until we are really depending on each other. Its like 1st and 2nd month . Yeah , u changed , u are no more naive , u had no more adorable. u had no more natural smiles when looking at me. The eyes , i couldn't see myself.

No matter how much u said u love me , or rather , how much you had been missing me.
I see words , i feel nothing.

Drew something for u , you said it was ugly , when everybody said its nice. Just one word , thanks , i will be happier even if ALL my friends said its nice.
Got a toy for u , you never even bothered..

I wanted to buy u the phone , but it reminds me that u said , u can get 5 digits of cash anytime, just one call. I know who u are refering to .

i was really having sleepless nights. i change your photos , comp , phone , everything i could see.
but i couldnt erase my mind. theres still you , my heart is always stinging. whenever i think of you . I said im waiting , yes. Im still waiting. Im waiting for the one that would accompany whatever i do, would support me whatever i do , would laugh at every jokes i said , not the one , that scolds me everyday , not the one , that hide everything from me , not the one , that complains more than i do .

Im glad. You are happy that i told u all that , I dun care if u hate me or not ,

Live happily , you are happier without me.