I cant slp. though im awake for 20 hours.

just bathed. slacked. smoke.

I still find that im short of something .
Yes.
Its her .

Somebody chatted with me since 1am.
Her situation , was like so similar with me.
Yet more complicated.
However ,
Because of comforting her, i , myself couldn't sleep
I kept thinking , think and think and think.
I would like to compose it like a song.
To show how much i feel to her .
Its nobody other than her, jtyl ;
I keep repeating .
I know i had no more chances , no more hope .
I had a dead heart. Yet a heart that hopes for a miracle.
I have let her down . Empty promises .

How have u been? Are u fine?
If u are , i will be glad.
Do you know , days without u are so hurtful ,
Nights without you are so painful ,
I find every moments being with u were happiest.
No matter how much thicks and thins we had go through together .
Theres still an ending .
I believe , theres a happy ending , but that did not happen to us.
I wish , theres a happy start , but that did not happen to me either.

I feel so jealous ,
or rather regret .

im lazy, to do anything
or rather , no mood

kthxbai

running away

only going out with frens will stop me from thinking. but after so many tries.
Shes still in my mind , or rather , in my heart.
z
i hate to say this but its true . fuck it.

Anyway.
Ytd met an online fren in lan .
Then played a game wif him and his frens
Then go RC meet everybody and started heading to SCC ( sembawang community centre)
Cux theres dance there.
We got free tickets.
We played pool while waiting for everyone to arrive.
ABt 7. All reach le .
But the bus last min say never come .
So we have to fork out own money to cab there.
But nvm , cux fooming paid for us . Heeehee

Reach there . Tons people .
Took a group photo and proceed to our seats .
Many malays , or rather , indians.
We are the only group of chinese. -__________-
watched the dance. i find that the chinese modern dance is better than the top 3 .
But becux they got lesser supporters they lost.
Cause everyone is brown or black skin ;/
Hmms.
Maybe i support them becux they are chinese girls uh . :x
But dancers seriously has nice figure. And they are hot when dancing . omfgzxc
After the dance event.
We go back rc.
Then we heard that theres a fight .
30 indians whacking 1 indian guy . bleed alot ;d
hehe
too bad left too early , never watch the show ;o
then slack slack play play at RC.
Till 1am . all go home le. then play dota until 5am littat .
Sleep.
Woke at 12 by mother. then now im sleepy so fast
NIGHTS!

No photos because im lazy zxczx c

hehehe
Wednesday, Midnight i went to meet xiuling , then we go play billard.
I dunno how to play billard though ,
so i used my pool skills , theres big difference . table bigger , holes and balls smaller. so i keep miss LOL
in the end i lost to her . EEk.
Nvm , next time we shall pk again .

Then then , we went down lan.
lan close le we went rasa rasa eat and slack .
Then all of us went matt house.
Matt was bullied in his own house LOL.
3 rounds of being sm-ed ( caned and stripe naked )
damn funny pls.
Suddenly all of us got the mood to go ktv on the other day (friday)
So we decided to ton,
IN THE END.
IM THE ONLY ONE THAT STAYS AWAKE .
Woke everyone up at 10+
Breakfast and slack till almost 12 ,
Finally we go for our singing .
Sang quite alot .
then then , abt 6 , time up , so we went home .
Reached home i slpt till today morning. abt 6am
PPstream-ed till 8am+
All the while was watching " king of snookers "
Quite a nice show i can say . also very dramatic. And still , its a happy ending
Went garena and talk cock wif alot dota mates. Crap till 11+ we finally start playing LOL.
then after that game i went downstairs buy ciggs and lunch .
Just played 2 games with yuan .
Pubs are so funny . hahaha
There was a game , me (bane) and crazyfrog (omni) fighting kunkka and veno (2 pubs)
We bought magic stick and spam like no ending.
Cause the veno keep ward LOL.
Owned the game of cux. Whole game died twice .
ANyway , i dun think we are joinin DvG.
As jacky told me that Zp and Hong dun wan play .
Then nvm lor.
WHO NEED LAST FOR DVG PM ME!

signing off.
Hehehhee

HUNGRY

Just back from john house. played the comp from 4am to 3pm.
AND WTF I LOST 7 GAMES .
ladder is restarting. i think pubbus gonna laugh at my score.
HAHAHA 1-7 !

AND.
Im super hungry . only ate 1 chicken wing and 1 piece otah .
Now im cooking some noodles. ;d

Okay.
Nothing more to post . lololllllll

Hi my fans

Okay. recently was hanging around outside again.
fren's house , lanshop.

Went to movie ytd . With 13 dudes and ladies.
Watch fast and furious.
Quite nice show i can say.
Ending part was quite funny.

Anyway ,
We will be joinin DvG. DotaSG compy.
We will be the fighting against the powerhouse.
Last compy for me and hong , i think , not gonna be playing much during NS time.

Okay. Tc guys :D

Home sweet home

Yes. like i said. Finally.
After 1 week of staying fren house.
I suddenly feel like going home.
So i came back.

The night i was alone , i started to think again .
The tone rang. Didnt bother to pick it up ,
Im afraid, I would forget ,
The sweet memories of us.
yet hurtful , It wasnt so smooth now , rough and rocky path .
We passed. The easy times came. We had our each and own path .
How much i wish , we could still walk again .
Theres no other girls other than u in my mind .
Or rather , in my heart .
I know nothing in my mind .
Just you in my heart.

Theres no more chances.
Theres no more hope.
I dun wanna be ur fren.
Or rather , contact again .
It would be quite hurtful .
As i said , as long as ur happy . I wouldn't care who u are with.
I wouldn't care , whoever is woo-ing you.

Live life happier.
Treasure urself more.
Theres a quote , Love yourself before start loving others.
I think , i shldnt start loving others yet.
Because i still hate myself .
I regret alot of things i had done.
That destroys almost all of my relationship ,
Whether with family or girlfrens.
Still , theres a cure .
As long as they still care for u.
Just forgive and forget.
No point holding all the grudges.
No point keeping the hurting memories.
Days pass.
Time pass.
1 day u will forget about it.
So why thinking about the bads.

Live forward.

pain..

Hi im sick.
I mean, EVERYONE in the lan is sick

asdasdasdasd

hi. back from bbq.
i din bring my phone. so i din manage to meet up wif cynthia LOL

slacked there. drank there. played there. exercise there and injured myself there. -_-
my toe is swollen , blueblack and having blood clots. -_-
fuckin pain. now walking like bai kar. -_-

ok .

i hate to say this. but i realise im still missing her. sigh.
i wanted to show my care. But no , i cant .
i wish to show my love, but i cant too .

Sighs

TIME TO GO EVON's BDAY PARTY.

QUITE EXCITED TO SEE MY CYNTHIA NUER LOL

Ok. Shes no more in my heart ! :D

After talking out wif JJ ! :D

AND YTD WE WENT LAN TO TON. 12 HOURS FTW. Wanted to go KTVafter that but no more room !

These days im really enjoying to be with frens O:
But still i wish there is 1 more partner with me :(
But its definately not HER.

TIME TO ZHAO.

LASTLY. I REALISE IM VERY TALENTED IN TANKER HEROS

OK hi there

Im back. i got all my pay already. about 1k plus.
but i need to ton for 2 months uh. and return frens and give mother father sister or wadever i left abt 500+ for myself
But nvm .
Next pay is coming also. :D

3rd day in matthew house.
Im enjoying here.
Talking cock wif the cbkias everyday.
Playing comp here everyday.
Watching movie together everyday.

Im sort of forgetting her soon.
Though i still miss her :I

hah.
Forget abt it.

Anyway.
Team Vaour got 4th place in spring flash.
Last 2 games are crap.
They are like zombies using computers
__
made me quite fed up actually. Nvm
XTC joked with us.
That game was actually relax game ;d

After the compy. Nicky and me went to Funan IT mall.
cause i need take my IT show pay. 300$ nia.
Then we went shopping ;o
Bought 2 shirts.
$40+

Then i wanted to get myself a razer mouse.
So we walk around.
But. Too exp for me o;
the cheapest also 70+
Buy le will heartache. LOL
So we planned to go at simlim square there.
In the end. We took MRT and go home o;
Slp for whole night and go work the next day.

After that day. Everyday at matt house le until now also here

Hehe

10more mins
im setting off to cyberdome.
meeting nicky first at admiralty ;d

ok good luck to me. CHAMPION HERE I COME

OK GG

Pawned. 3rd letter just came.
took me 10mins to open it.

And wow.
You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93),to report for ENLISTMENT on

12 JUN 2009 (FRI) AT 10.00AM
to 3RD BATTALION SINGAPORE GUARDS (3 GUARDS)

AS YOU DID NOT ATTAIN THE REQUIRED NAPFA TEST STANDARD , YOU WILL BE ATTENDING A 4-WEEKS PHYSICAL TRAINING PHASE PROGRAMME FOLLOWED BY 9-WEEKS BASIC MILITARY TRAINING.

...........................
fuck shagged.

Tomorrow is Springflash day 2. Fight of the top 8s
quite confident to get 2nd place ;D, IF NOTHING SCREW UP

i dunno why i loved u so deep

5th month.
I misses the days
Really.
Every morning you would be the first person i see when i wake up.
Everyday u would be chatting with me on bed. Dreaming with me..
Everynight u would be the last person i saw before i went into my dreams..

Baby i really hope that nothing happened between us.
i really hope that we are living in our own world..
But i know , u do need ur frens..

5th month. i did not get u a present yet..
But soon i will get one for u.

Today wasnt a good day for me.
Was too tired. yet i still went to work. work halfway fall aslp then tio scold.. zz
No mood and energy at all.
Not a single soul thats smsing wif me to keep me awake.
Really a fed up day.

Im really pissed.
Im bearing that for months.
Sorry , to limit ur freedom.
I wont anymore.









Such frens shld just go die or rather live alone. (:
Behind the comp just suits u.
When u have no wife. U can go f ur sister (:
Since that u would fall in love wif ur sister (:

!!!! D:

Heyyyyyyyyyyy frenssssssss

skipped work today.
Cause im too tired.
Slpt abt 13 hours until 3pm
Then slack awhile go home .
Came out in the midnight.
Meet those nerds and now at xiaodi houseeee
Tomorrow straight go work. :D
Nothing to post already

IM FUCKING JEALOUS.
DUN LET ME CATCH U DO ANYTHING TO HER.
NO CHANCE WILL BE GIVEN.