sigh

wtf man. today go back camp.
duty at new year eve really suck! ):

<3 huiling :)

ok well.
previously my comp was down so i din get a chance to blog.
hmms.

now i dunno wan to say wad.
okay.

im very content with my love life with laopo (:
i hope we wont quarrel so much like before

and yeah.
you getting more and more sweet. <3

;D ily

OK WELL!. thats my team for alienware.
they suck! :D
:X:X:X

);

I feel so weird.
idk.
im in pain and alot of loads on my back.
yet theres nobody to lend a helping hand.
or rather in moral support..

today played alienware.
got 4th position.
we can get like 2nd or 3rd de..
hais.
quite disappointed but not as disappointed as this morning..

I really dunno to believe you anot.
Guess i choose not to believe you.
Thats better for both of us.
u can go on with ur mr elmo or wadever.
I dun really care.
I can still stay single like months before
No bgr stress
So freedom.
Wan hong then hong
Wan play then play
Better?
hah..

idk..

i hate 2009

fkin dulan. no mood. do wad also fail.
now u tell me that really i demoralise in everything.


i put how much trust and faith also no use now. only get back pains.
guess i shld just fuck care all wadever feelings and do wadever thing i wan.
actually i alrdy know this day is soon.
but i dun expect that to be so soon.
before my countdown ends?
its only a 5 days
for so many weeks i never chat with a girl?


wads the difference between forget and fade?
if i say i forget u. that equals that ur nothing to me.
if i say i fade ? so wad are u to me? fren? an online fren?

really..
im fking pissed..
i dunno is this angry or rather sad.
everyday i was wishing for ur sms.
today sms u never reply i know something is weird alrdy.
when i recieve it .. thats so wrong. real wrong.

i prepared things for u.
now i kept it for myself?
i tried to listen to u.
now i have to speak to myself?
im waiting for the day to see you.
now i saw the day u left me.

i know i hurt you.
maybe that kinda hurt is very painful that u wont heal.
idk?
im sorry?
its no use i know.
im more like a pussy than a man right now.
being afraid to hurt u, scare to say words that might lead me to being rude?








when everything is stressing me
who should i complain to?
who the fk knows wad im thinking?
its seriously nobody.
who know wad i like and dislike?
even my damn parents dunno.
but why should i care for people that wad they like or dislike?
why the fk im doing all this?
in my whole fking 18 years that i have lived.
how many times do u think i will fell for a girl?
its only twice untill now, i can said.
if u never suddenly pop out in my life.
i guess i would still be thinking my ex..













........................ nothing to say.
i hope i will fking forget u very soon.
this is heartaching for fuck sake.

6

Well then.
Seriously i fking hate to be lonely.
ok i lazy tok so much.
And why the fk so long nobody tag my tagbox. all shy ah?
-_-

ytd i watched jennifer's body when im in camp.
Suppose to watch with my somebody , idk why untill now also never meet her before. :/

HUH? NEVER MEET BEFORE?
idk? Maybe it sounds weird to some of u guys or girls :/
I just loved the feelings she gave me.
At least she made me feel that im not alone.
But now.. the feeling getting over bit by bit.
Maybe becux of the 21 days of challenge uh.
Hah. heck care. She sure lose one.

Well then. Gotta tok more about tml .
I can predict my future... (:
tml gonna play my alienware compy (hope so)
then if got play.
I will win win and winnnnn.
At least try to top 8 or top 4.
Thats my minimum target.
Laopo said that if i lose i know wad to do.

Her punishment is too..tough and pain.. for me.
So i try my best okay.
And i hope to recieve the sms that u always wish me when i play my compy..
(:

8

aww.
1 more week.?
i also dunno wad will happen when my countdown ends :/
since i cheated so many times alrdy :X

well.. im getting abit feverish.
But i wanna go out.
Im bored here.
I got no own room to sleep alrdy.
My mum rent the room to 2 dunno de.

I wanna go out sia..
really.
wan sleep also no place to sleep le.
knnbcb

but i shall wait for my dinner first :/
im hungry ):


94510367 << NEW NUMBER


<3 zhuuuuuuuupopo

10

YAYYYYYY. 10 more days (:
I MISS UR VOICE!

today baby sick.
But she dun let me go up her house ):
kinda disappointed.

Anyway.
I just went for haircut.
not bad.
Though i sit there till my butt pain.
But results quite good.
haha
quite satisfied.

Tonight, gonna go yishun find dad and have dinner with him
..
Time to take some money? i guess :D


猪婆婆isLOVED

11

Baby is sick. hope she recover fast :<
1 more hour then i leave this house and go back camp le.. ):
94510367 << my new number.
i ownself also find it hard to rmb :(

NEXT week alienware compy.
Im losing confidence >:

12

ZHU POPOPOPOPOPO!!!!!!
I MISS YOU!! & I WONT FORGET YOU!! ):

hmms. more than 36 hours never sleep le.
Tired but i dun feel like sleeping.
I wanna be super tired then sleep in camp ;D

xoxoxoxoxo
12 days more <3

fk up

lame shift. lame roster. lame lame lame -__-

13

Recently. been rotting alone at home..
I miss my frens.
And of cux i miss u too ):

I wanna slack, i wanna find some place to relac.
But i dunno who to find.
Everyone seems to be busy.

So i din really contact them.
Till ytd, nicky jio me go lan.
So today ( just now )
I wanted to meet nicky and get my phone first.
But then too late le so we meet le go lan.
Then played with our compy team.
Hmms.
Totally different from the old team i played.
Maybe i really rusty le.
Recently only own in pub :/
Wish me luck on sat's compy.
The most expensive compy ever -_-

I WAN A PHONE!
I WAN A LINE!
I WAN SMS U NON STOP!!

Yea. this month top up 2 times le.
Idk why. how i spend one :X

I wan go out.. I cant sleep ):

16 days ago i wrote it.
16 days later u are angry with me
i know im in the wrong.
i shouldnt said all those words.
jealousy and selfishness took over my mind.

If only jealousy don't take place,
I bet i won't know that i loved you so much.
If only selfishness isn't involve.
I wont be regretting..

Baby, i love you so.
I misses the days,
when you sms me in the morning and late night.
when you still chat and let my wildness out.
when you would show ur care and love for me.

Now, i could only, feel it bit by bit.
Afraid someday there wont be any more for me.
This Christmas.
I wrote letter to santa claus,
I told him, i wan you.

Seeing my friends would be able to celebrate with their love ones.
But the one i love isn't with me.
I wish i can do many more things that you.
Many thoughts in my mind.
I only want you to be happy, simple enough.
Yet i can't even give u happiness
Instead.. I let you down..

That broke your heart, but it broke mine too.
):
If only time could rewind..
I would never. let you sad again.

15

just put in more trust k ):

CANCER
Great Kisser. Very high sex appeal.
Great in bed. Most horny.

PISCES
Caring. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMNIT. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. Extremely weird but ina good way

LIBRA
Very gentle. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Silly andfun! Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will evermeet!
AMAZING in Bed.!!!!!

CAPRICORN
Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.
Irrestible, awesome kisser. Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. EVERYPERFORMANCE!!!!

AQUAR IUS
Trustworthy. Sexy. Rare to find. Loves being in longrelationships. Extremly energetic.
Amazing in bed, the BEST lovers.

ARIES
Outgoing. Spontanious. No one to fvck with. Have own uniquesexiness. Unpredictable. Erotic.
Funny. Addictive. Take you on trips to the moon inbed.

TAURUS
Aggressive. freak in bed. rare to find. loves beingin long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what theywant.
Extremly outgoing. Outstanding kisser. sexual as****.

LEO
Great talker. Always the life of the party. Sexy.Horny all the time. Attractive physically or mentally (sumtimesboth) Can be Laid back or Wild. Knows how to have fun. Is reallygood at fvcking . Great kisser.

VIRGO
Dominant in relationships.Sexy.A lwaysHorny.Freak in bed. Always wants the lastword.Loud.Caring.Sma rt.Loves being in long relationships.Addictive . Passionate.

SCORPIO
sexy. Talkative. Energetic. Predict future. Mosterotic.Freak in bed.Good kisser. not one to mess with. always getwhat they want.

SAGITTARIUS
Spontanious. Horny.High sex appeal.
Rare to find. Good when found.
Loves being in long relationships.

GEMINI
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners VeryGood in bed. Lover not a Fighter But Still Punch Your Lights Out.Trustworth

16

i broke the chain, for awhile.
really couldn't sleep.
keep missing you, all day long.
i miss you i missyou i misses you! ):):):

now, im still waiting.
though i din know wad would happen when the countdown ends.
I just wait. and wait.
Though i hates waiting but i will wait for you >:
hoping someday, ur no more angry, will come back to me..

17

Baby, u don have to wonder.
Though i din sms / call you, these few days im doing everything to know updates about you.
wadever you wanna let me know , i will know (:

iloveyou.

18

Baby, although i din heard much news about you , i hope u are doing fine (:
i wanna tell you , i wont forget you.
You cannot forget me also ):

During these period of reflection and regrets.
Im so afraid that somebody would just snatch u away ):
I miss you, tons.


❤ 猪婆婆

Where are u ):
How are u doing? ):
19 more days baby <3
i will prove to you , i wont forget you .

Friday.

Today. i dunno wad im going to do at home. Long break again.. But this time its different.
Days without you are so weird.

Every morning i woke at 6.30 automatically. seeing your message " morning !"
This morning.. i got nothing.
Yet i couldnt sms you ):

Baby i miss you..
20 more days..

<3Huiling

猪你生日快乐!

i feel so useless.
keep making you upset.
21 days..
how to endure..?
i will miss u like crazy.

Today is your birthday.
yet i made you sad at the day right before.
and ur still hurt right now ..

i miss you .. ):
and i love you.

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