Drunk words. but its all true..

1 year gonna pass.
my heart has never changed.

i love u. i had to admit.
but now i hate u.
i hate u for not giving me a second chance.
I hate u for giving me up
In fact.
i love u too deep..


u are angry when i put the date.
i dun let u see.
so wad?
I rmb wadever u dislike. i rmb wadever u like.
i rmb everything u did for me.
Now i could feel every feelings u had for me.
I miss ur smile.
I miss our quarrels.
I miss everything we had done together.

I regret.
I regret i dint treat u better
I regret i let u down
I regret i i never love you so much as now.

But still.
I love you
I love the way u care.
I love the way u smile.
I love the way, when ur angry with me but still thinks for me.

How many people know wad im thinking.
How many people understand wad im trying to do.
How many people know my lifestyle.

I speak to u.
I listen to u.
I think for u.

But ur heart isnt with me anymore.
Ya, long ago it wasnt with me..


Birthday is coming.
I dont intent to make wishes.
Cux..
Birthday wish are lies.
I made 3 wishes in my life.
They never came true..


When im 10 ,
i wish that my mum and dad wont quarrel so much.

When im 13 ,
I wish that my parents wont divorce.

When im 18 ,
I wish that u will still be celebrating my birthday with me next year.
..

Its all lies..
None of them came true..
I lack of family love.
I lack of frenship love.
I lack of Girlfren's love..
Wad can i do?

Im so afraid to speak to someone.
There isnt anybody i could trust.
I wanna be selfish.
I wanna care for myself.

If u ever ask me,
Whats up with me?

No, none of u asked me.
I have been keeping my feelings for so so long.
I wanna release it.
Im so tired.
Really so tired..

Hais.. Really ah.. Idunno wad to post. Work untill very shag sia .. My sleepin time is all mixed up.. I dun wanna care abt wad r/s wadever le.. Damn sian............. Tmr must drink. Cheehong a fk up (: * note:cheehong is a name :x

You are right.
Bye

;x

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friday i wan to drink drink drink.
forget everything. !!

101st post :D

ok well..
this week. i spend 20$ only !! :D

I said all that.
yeap i said.

In order to forget about me is to hate me .
I got no choice.

&
I dunno why..

Wad am i?
To you.

Its love.

Jacq.

imissyou hell lots..

AARON I WILL MISS U ONE!

walao. i gonna miss aaron la.
his bdae coming soon alrdy then now kenna caught.
sunday i still ton with him one leh!! D:

zzz

Oh ok well.
Just came back from ahboy house..
damn bored.
took some lame pics there and uploaded to fb alrdy :D

later going back camp.
i ton untill now dun wan to sleep so that i will sleep in camp.
waste my time siaaaaa.

STAND STAND STAND STAND STAND. I HATE THIS KINDA NS LIFE.
No excite-ment at all!

hais

I really dun like staying home when shes here. -.-
fckin no sense of secure.
zzz

i going out eat alrdy.
call her dabao for me and sis also never buy anything
still okok
make us wait for 3 hours then need find own food.
damn fk up.






I NEVER MISS YOU.
SO STOP MISSING ME ALSO.
MAKE UR LIFE EASIER



IM ALRDY USED TO BEING ALONE.

xD

tmr going dota compy.
wish me luck ok :)

i very bored..

メinglei says:
u got hair handsome
メinglei says:
no hair like my backside



best description of botak
but wtf i now got hair alrdy leh.

poor alrdy..

:(
i wanna meet frens.
now now now now now now now now now ..............
im so.
empty inside.

Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn la.

& my starhub bill is 150$
90$ from sms?
lame. i got free sms wad. anyhow.
gonna complain soon ;x



):):):
i hope i can escape from reality. :/

xD

oh well.
Recently was staying at home. & at camp.
the duty is damn boring pls.
and now getting more and more shag.
cux our shift is longer and longer ):

and well.
been playing dota.
my skills getting back alrdy.
haha.

tuesday met binwen acc him go orchard buy belt.
well.
he spent 140 on a belt.
then i saw the jacket over there that attracts my view.
but the cost is .. $200..

how to spend this kinda money. idk -_-
but i think i will buy that jacket sooner or later.
see how ba. in love with it :X

meetin my love this sun <3
cant wait alrdy.
somemore this sat sun monday i offday.
super song pls (:
haha.

okay well.
tc humans