Virgin post

im doing all these , changing all my passwords. Even my old blog , is your account. Everything, just trying myself from stop missing her , i feel that unworthy. i knew it long ago , if i were to tell her my everything . in fact i had nothing to keep from her , she would take it for granted. But she got tons things which i dunno , like something , i knew it after our broke up .Lied to me for 3 weeks. I feel no point , im trying to give confidence for u , but its really hard , everytime i would be missing you , wondering what are u doing , everytime i would sms you , u are either replying later or rather, never reply. You will only sms me when i think its dead bored. Nobody is entertaining you? You said u love me , u said u miss you , i feel no more . Really no more ,

I wish, the time could turn back , back until we are really depending on each other. Its like 1st and 2nd month . Yeah , u changed , u are no more naive , u had no more adorable. u had no more natural smiles when looking at me. The eyes , i couldn't see myself.

No matter how much u said u love me , or rather , how much you had been missing me.
I see words , i feel nothing.

Drew something for u , you said it was ugly , when everybody said its nice. Just one word , thanks , i will be happier even if ALL my friends said its nice.
Got a toy for u , you never even bothered..

I wanted to buy u the phone , but it reminds me that u said , u can get 5 digits of cash anytime, just one call. I know who u are refering to .

i was really having sleepless nights. i change your photos , comp , phone , everything i could see.
but i couldnt erase my mind. theres still you , my heart is always stinging. whenever i think of you . I said im waiting , yes. Im still waiting. Im waiting for the one that would accompany whatever i do, would support me whatever i do , would laugh at every jokes i said , not the one , that scolds me everyday , not the one , that hide everything from me , not the one , that complains more than i do .

Im glad. You are happy that i told u all that , I dun care if u hate me or not ,

Live happily , you are happier without me.