Drunk words. but its all true..

1 year gonna pass.
my heart has never changed.

i love u. i had to admit.
but now i hate u.
i hate u for not giving me a second chance.
I hate u for giving me up
In fact.
i love u too deep..


u are angry when i put the date.
i dun let u see.
so wad?
I rmb wadever u dislike. i rmb wadever u like.
i rmb everything u did for me.
Now i could feel every feelings u had for me.
I miss ur smile.
I miss our quarrels.
I miss everything we had done together.

I regret.
I regret i dint treat u better
I regret i let u down
I regret i i never love you so much as now.

But still.
I love you
I love the way u care.
I love the way u smile.
I love the way, when ur angry with me but still thinks for me.

How many people know wad im thinking.
How many people understand wad im trying to do.
How many people know my lifestyle.

I speak to u.
I listen to u.
I think for u.

But ur heart isnt with me anymore.
Ya, long ago it wasnt with me..


Birthday is coming.
I dont intent to make wishes.
Cux..
Birthday wish are lies.
I made 3 wishes in my life.
They never came true..


When im 10 ,
i wish that my mum and dad wont quarrel so much.

When im 13 ,
I wish that my parents wont divorce.

When im 18 ,
I wish that u will still be celebrating my birthday with me next year.
..

Its all lies..
None of them came true..
I lack of family love.
I lack of frenship love.
I lack of Girlfren's love..
Wad can i do?

Im so afraid to speak to someone.
There isnt anybody i could trust.
I wanna be selfish.
I wanna care for myself.

If u ever ask me,
Whats up with me?

No, none of u asked me.
I have been keeping my feelings for so so long.
I wanna release it.
Im so tired.
Really so tired..