Thank you for everything

Hi baby baby. Today's our virgin day! It's how I name the first day since our second month together. Oh well, I'm a little better than you. I made my first draft in my mind while listening to the song on your iTouch. I'm like, 'er', 'uh', 'ummm...', you know me. :p

First off, thank you for everything. Yeah I know it's on the title! Heehee. But it doesn't matter right now, deshou?

I've had many first-timers with you. And surprisingly awkward, I enjoyed it. Thank you for trying to break through the embarrassment I keep shielding myself with. Really, thank you. You made me realize that, most of the material stuffs don't matter at all as long as we're together. Be it for now, I'll cherish this moment and etch every other moments with have -- in my memoir forever.

Maybe, I just suck at expressing sometimes. I get mad, unreasonable, childish and oftenly, I react bad to getting teased by you. I shy away. I push you away. I tickle you. I hit you. All for basically no reasons. And sometimes it's just because it's fun and you look cute trying to get me to stop. Your smile has never once failed to brighten up my day.

And then I start to think about the past, where I've never bothered about your existence. You were just a friend's friend of mine. Then you became san--, my net idol. I started to notice you more. I started to join in your DotA games. Know your name. Know your background. Know your past. Then I know your friends. Everything links up to something. Coincidentally, one day, we were at the same Kbox. And you were singing. That's something new, I never knew that about you. If the legends say, 'love at first sight', I probably knew what was falling in love with your amazing voice. We started texting. Doing little things on the net together. MSN, Webcam and DotA. I knew you more, bit by bit. That was when I knew, you were just darn funny and amazingly interesting. Though that one period was when I was at the most depressed point of my life. But hey, you were there to laugh with me. Not laugh at me.

I knew you liked me at a certain time. But I wasn't so sure if it was just crush or simple infatuation. So I started to ask you to give up. You were so determined that I was astonished for the first time in my life -- at one man's determination and perseverance. C:

Soon, the rumors came. The hating started. I was new to this feeling. Hesitation. It's not just hesitating between choosing two brands of chocolate or what to eat for dinner. I had to make a choice between you or work. Without you, I can still work. But somewhere in there, remember Lu-chan? She said you were one special thing, that I might never want to live without. And that's what's motivating me to hold on till now. You've never once stopped to give me security, continuously letting me know that you're still there and holding on. Not letting go. Thank you. I'll never let go of you too unless you ask me to. I promise.

Everything we've gone through played a part. Some conditions. Compromises and promises. Give and take. What else. But this love just never gets tiring. I'm still working hard on it. I'll make myself your girlfriend officially one day. I know it hurts, the way it sounds. I'm not okay with letting you go through all these, you don't deserve what they say at all, you're far too nice. Far too good. But I just can't and I'll never want to give up on that one man that made me...a better person.

I love you.

For the one man I've once loved and love lost forever, cheers.
For the one man I've found, love and will cherish.. Till the day your heart is no longer mine. I'll leave my everything with you. You name it, my mind, my heart and my soul.

P.S You looked really sexy back there in the shower.
P.P.S I dropped your iTouch once, and I even took off its cover. Like oooooops?
P.P.P.S I love you.
P.P.P.P.S You're mean for reading this from the autosaved draft. :C MEANIE.

B.