Apologies

If there was a stupidest, silliest and blindest moment of my life.. It would have been then when I made that bullshit promise. I've made promises all my life and I've never lived to regret them except for that one. I'm such a fool. Who am I to even claim that I can protect you and your heart? I don't even know when I'm hurting you and obviously...I frigging hurt you all the time. What the fuck is wrong with me anyway? Why am I always saying 'yes' to everything, to everyone? Why am I always so frigging dumb?

I'm just so fucked and I'm so fucking sorry. I made that promise because at that time, I wasn't sure if I wanted to be with you. But all I know is now, if there's anything that will allow me to take back that bullshit promise. I'll do fucking anything. I'll even hurt someone, that's not you. Now, all I want is you. To be with you, to live with you, to learn with you. And to love you. That's all I want. AND I SWEAR THAT'S ALL I WANT. By swearing, I don't mean fucking swearing. I'm so sorry. I'm just so sorry, Wenbin. I'm so fucking sorry that I've never been sorrier my entire life.

B.