Kuro San - Day 1 & 2

I don't have anything else to write about suddenly.. All in my mind is our kitty, Kurogi(mi). Male or female. It no longer matters, I guess. But I'm sure, it'll always be Kuro San. I'll blog about it more often until it gets better...or dead.. I hope you won't mind.

Day 1, Monday, November 08, 2010 - Too ill to bite.
Yesterday, it happens to be our friend, Matthew's birthday. The entire day, Kuro just spent its day asleep throughout the heavy rain. It didn't eat much and it didn't drink at all. Its food bowl was always cleared by the older cats. Those stray and surprisingly healthy cats. I don't know what was wrong or more of, I didn't bothered if there was anything wrong.. Its left eye was badly infected once, but it got better. I took that fact for granted and now the infection came back. It could no longer open its left eye, or rarely, very little of its tiny slit. Then, until the time when I was knocking off work, Kuro didn't come forward to my bird calls. It appeared after awhile, tired and dragging its body to the drain. Then I realized, it was asleep at the stairwell beside the café. At the birthday event, Kuro didn't bite, it just slept in the bag.. Occasionally opening its eyes to check out its surroundings. Then falling back asleep. Like nothing else mattered, besides sleeping. It wouldn't even budge or wake up when you took cream from the cake for it. Back at your house, Kuro was still asleep, waking up to shift its position to the bed once. Then I shifted him onto the table. It slept all night till morning.. It didn't move. At almost 7 AM in the morning, I saw Kuro's sleeping face on the table beside your bed. Covered with eye dirt and hardened tears...at the very least, it was still breathing...

Day 2, Tuesday, November 09, 2010 - Too bothered to eat.
Today, Kuro slept on the cab to work. It didn't move as much as it did when it was healthier. It no longer struggles to get out of the bag and explore the cab. It just slept throughout the 30 minutes journey from your house to your camp and then to my workplace. During the DotA matches I played, Kuro just kept in its prowling position and slept. When I finally realized, there was something so wrong with it. I made the move to check the net for clues to knowing what's wrong and how should I fix this misery I caused. Nothing helps. Everything is about going to the fucking vet. And if I don't have money, does that mean Kuro is going to die? I poured solid food and as well as mashed ones in two different bowls. I let Kuro sniff both bowls. It had more sniffing reactions to the mashed ones.. For a second, I thought it was gonna eat.. It didn't. It turned away and jumped off the counter top. It didn't even land properly, it fell flat...on the ground. I cried. I literally cried. I took Kuro into my arms. And an older cat came, smelling the food from far.. It started eating the food I took down from the counter top. I cried even harder and Kuro just stared at the older feline. Like...it didn't care. Unlike what it'd do normally, chase it off and honor all the food for itself. I started writing this after that. I placed Kuro on the chair beside me, and within seconds......it fell asleep again. I'm still crying. Even the Maple Uncle feels that something's definitely wrong with Kuro. Demo, doushi o? What can I do...?

I really need you now.

B.