Sweet sweet you

Looking at my past. Brings back memories of you. How we met. How i chase you. How persistent i am. Yet today, I actually ruined my own hard work. We've not be out together for quite some time. I'm stupid. Yes i am. The reply that u said im stupid is flowing in my mind all the time. How stupid can i be. Can you wake up ur fuckin idea? I am awake now, but its too late.

What can i do? live a happy life with so much pain.

Move on and continue lying to everyone that i'm fine.

Where's the promises we made before you left?

I am alone. I really is.

I tried moving on. Who gives me a chance?

No i am not mad with anybody. I'm just too upset.

I will be strong, i am trying hard to be strong.

At the same time. I wanna prove you i can take care of you in future.

I wanna prove you that i love you all my life.

But today's situation is far worst than how we just met.

You have no crush in me now, i upset you.

You have no more confident in me now, i deceived you.

You love me no more, i hurt your heart.

There's nothing i can do for you, except that hoping you will cool down.

Think of me sometimes. Think of the memories, it might bring u some smile.

I feel so stupid, so dumb.

Why did i even let go in the first place? because of anger? i'm so dumb. so so dumb.

No matter what i do now i just think of you.

Waking up at a timing when you normally knock off.

Wishing you to give me a smile at the window.

Asking me to open the door, cook for you.

I still don't understand.. Why did our relationship become so hard.

Why did i do those ridiculous thing that upset you.

How am i suppose to move on without you?

You're so sweet, you're so so sweet.

Looking at all the post u wrote in my blog.

I hate myself. I hate myself for not cherishing you.

I hate everything i done that upsets you.

I hate the trust that i once dun believe you.

I hate to make things worst than eventually end up this way.

I recalled alot alot of things. Really..

I .. am sorry..

Wenbin